A poem I wrote in the midst of struggling with my regular nightly fights with the enemy. And then finished (last couple lines) when God had given me some more vision.
I love the way the world is during a storm. Soft and quiet, and yet louder than you have ever heard all at once. This day has dragged on and on, with nothing to do except a few errands and the grocery store. I had free time to do whatever I wanted, sleep, read, draw, […]
Being a devoted follower of Jesus is the hardest thing I have ever done, and it is by far the thing I have failed at most in my life. I have cried to him in sorrow and yelled at him in anger, my most recent complaint has been over and over, “God I need you! […]
This was supposed to be freeing. Taking the chance out of it. Putting the control in my hands. So why do I feel so unsettled, like there is a much heavier weight on me now. Maybe I should explain a little bit. I’m taking this class about dating….yes I know….I thought it made me sound desperate too. […]
I have this bad habit. I’m sure there are others out there. My best friend calls it Radio ADD. Every few seconds I’ll change the channel. Even if the song I’m listening to is ok, even if I really like the song. I always have to check for something better. Because what if by not […]
What a month it has been. It’s left me sitting here on my bedroom floor with colorful christmas lights from a sweet friend strung around, creating the most beautiful light, somehow illuminating your love washing over me. My eyes falling and my heart open. In my walk with him there has been many, many ups […]
I have been going to church for awhile now. I talk the talk, and sometimes I even walk the walk. So things like grace, salvation, and Jesus even get tossed around in everyday conversations. I understand these things. I know the deep pit of sin that is always tugging at my thoughts and actions. I […]
Good message for this time of year.
The other day I was talking with one of my single friends. We are in that stage of life when our friends are getting married and choosing careers and having babies. We are figuring out who we are, our likes and dislikes, and our relationship with God. And part of this is so good. For […]
Now I would like to say that I love the Lord, that I love his people, and that I long for even strangers to know him. But recently our great God has been challenging my earthly sight. Some of my closest friends, and family, don’t know the Lord. Often my heart aches for them. My […]